Evolve…

Disheartened by many of life’s tragedies and long stretches spent in the valleys, I’ve been building with extraordinary limitations.

I can acknowledge that I am accountable for the decisions I did, or didn’t,make. And still, I can honor that I did the best I could with what I believed was available to me at the time. Capacity matters. Awareness changes. Growth is rarely linear.

The last five years alone have held more transformation than most timelines account for: the death of friendships, both figurative and physical, the loss of my father, and the quiet but undeniable death of a former version of myself. Each loss carved space. Each ending demanded something be reborn.

Being born in the year of the Cat means rebirth is written into my nature.

Nine lives to be lived.

A 33 life path.

I believe I am living number six; the victory after chaos.

This chapter is still under construction.

I am always building.

But this time, I’m not working with scraps. I’m refining what has always existed.

The past eight years have been spent navigating an eye-opening Saturn return. Clearing debris from an empty youth, reclaiming power that was once outsourced to people and systems that never earned it. In remembering the woman I was born to be, I didn’t become someone new. I returned.

Every October 31 marks a new chapter for me.

This year is no exception.

But this one feels deeper. More deliberate.

Bigger in some ways. Smaller in others.

I’ve been silent. (Ironically) Hidden, even. Afraid to face the imperfections I was slammed into while growing into adulthood. I’ve been an adult for twenty years—treated like one for twenty-five—and spent fifteen of those years, like many others, learning to locate light inside darkness.

What I’ve learned is this: while light can be created in the dark, both must exist for either to matter. In exploring both planes of my duality, I realized I am not one or the other.

I am both.

And with that knowing, I choose to evolve.

To refine.

To Rise & Reign.

I welcome the next box of obstacles…because I now understand they are also lessons, delivered only when I’m ready to rise again.

Cheers, to an evolution of Lund3on.